Sadness- June 4 2011

Deejay and me are...ify. I dont really know what that means, but to me our relationship is slowly going in a down wards spiral, and im sad...alot and really miss him. if he ends it then...im going to cry. I've never in my life cried over a guy, you cant comprehend how much he ment to me.

Last For a While. May 9

I know its been a long while sine my last post. I dont worry about Miller or Zack anymore, i met a new guy. Deejay is great, him and me had out first kiss on Sunday, we text alot, and i think he really loves me. We tell each other that periodically. Im gunna quite blogging for a little while, no body reads it anyway so logging off.

April 3 2011- Bree

I GOT A PUPPY! shes a Rottweiler puppy 5 weeks old named Bree. I got the name (nerd alert) from Lord of The Rings when Frodo and his hobbit friends went to the town of Bree and to a bar called the Prncing Pony to meet Gandolf, instead the met Aragorn who saved them from the black riderers who servered Lord Saron. I know nerdy but we really shouldn't hate nerds! If we didnt have nerds we wouldn't have phones, computers, cars! We would stil be liveing in frinkin caves if it wasnt for nerds! So be nice to nerds.

MARCH 28 2011- Loppieness

My Medication Makes Me Mighty Mental.

(P.S the medication that I am speaking of is doctor prescribed as a pain medication for my back after my extensive surgery march 24 10011)

March 27 2011-3 days after my surgery

im in so much pain. I need help getting out of bed and getting into bed. I have to take 4 different kinds of pills every 4 hours. Sitting is the most hurtful position to be in. Walking isnt so bad but i can sometimes get a little naseus after too long. I need help going to the bathroom. Bet i cn flush the toliet by myself and im getting better at Moving around in bed like turning my hips and chest. I hurt but this will all pass. Im also getting 2 kittens today or tommorow and after i move in a week im getting a rottwilier puppy.

UGH! SHIT! Hes in a relationship again! with some girl whos not even pretty! named Callie Hangerman! why God oh

why?! I think im giving up on the search for my lover Miller. Im giving up because we are just to far away, mabye we arn't made for each other. But i have new searches to search at church. At church now there are 3 cute guys who well at least two think im hot! and yes God im going to church every Sunday and Wednesday!!! life is content right now.

by the way this picture is just awsome but it really has no purpouse but to be there!

March 15 2011- I'm eating pretzels

I haven't talked with my dad in at least 2 1/2 weeks. I'm not sad it was my decision to completely ignore him. I think our (me and my mothers) presence isn't helping his atempt at being sober. So our hypothosis is that ignoreing him and not helping him in anyway will help him become more independent and that will give him things to do instead of sitting around watching T.V and getting drunk. But we actually have no clue, all our other hypothsis's have failed...epicly!
Also my surgery in next week on Thursday the 24 of March 2011!!!

hint: Next year the world will end. Be prepared...haha joking!