hey tonight i had to write this before i went to sleep. im officially a super jerk! my friend savannah the one who knows the bog down stairs zack, and me and kinda got us to know each other. well me and Zack had a great afternoon. we liked talk and played some of his stupid games but it was good. after i kept going on and on to savannah about it. until we had a 3 way on the phone and her friend exspained to me how i was acting. i had known savannah liked him...alot! and i rubbed it in about how we were spending time together and stuff. and how we layed on his bed and talked for an hour. but i didnt relize how it effected her. i feel like a whore now. i feel guilty and like shit. i like him alot but i have to choose weather i like me and savannah friendship more then zacks likeing of me. but i learned my lesson! and i wont...WONT make the same mistake twice!

Jan. 30 2011-Florida!

hey, im here listening to lady gaga. i still cant see how she came up with the name, mabye its so all viewers, ALL VIEWERS EVEN BABIES can say her name! probally not though... any way, the guy down stairs, he has been texting me! we kinda are getting to know each other! but he'll never break up with his girlfriend for me. also i went down town today! me and my mother took pictures of the buildings and junk! we got some pretty good ones. then she told me to look pretty and she took pictures of me...not cool mom! not cool. i hate pictures! my mother says im beautiful, but arnt all mother sapost to tell their daughters that? even if your daughter is an ugly peice of shit? i woud but i think im going to have pretty children. my mom was beautiful judging by the pictues in our old photo albums. she had long brown wavy hair, young pretty face, and thats when she was 18. when she married my dad! she had curly redish brown hair and a beautiful face! i however have my dads - you heard right DADS- brownish, unatractive wavy hair... it thick too. it takes me FOREVER to straighten it! but its alright when its finished. my mother wants to move to florida, after my surgery in Atlanta. i have scoliosis, and have to get two metal rods put in my back! but after we are going to the sunshine state! did you know about 6-8 major alligator attacks happen in Florida every year! and that...lets just say it isnt that pretty during fall-winter. its more like the stormy,hurricany,raining state!

jan. 28 2011- suckish day.

hey my life took a turn for the wrost. my parents seperated, i almost got evicted and my door got kicked in while some guy tried to rob me but my alarm went off, nothing was taken. but i did how ever meet a cute, (same age) boy who told my friend he thought i was cute. (idk if he REALLY likes me, lets hope so) and my 'friend' was sapost to come over tonight and we were gunna see him because she knows both of us. exspet she thought my apts. were ghetto and left to visit a friend in another town and caceled our plans without even telling me!!! (what a bitch!!!) so now im sad.