Feb. 27 2011-Miller May

Yesterday Rebecca spent the night. I regretted trying to believe she was a good friend because as soon as she left both my eyeliners dissappered with her! Also i have totally fallen into something! love
I'm in love with Miller May and eighth grader at our school whos recently single! Hes so amazing! He likes the same things i do (from what i have gathered) and i had a dream about him and me!!! we kissed in the dream! but i have to go now my mother wont stop pestering me!!!

Feb. 16 2011- tierd

its 11:58 P.M right now. After this I'm going to sleep. Today i got banned from chat on secret zen because i asked a guy a question and he got mad. Also Lewis made fun of the yesterday, i cried and Theo laughed about it today. Someone had farted near out table, we accused people and then Lewis says "I think Beverly's pussy stinks" then they laughed. But i want to forget, I'm so sad about that! This weekend I'm spending the night with Ashley then her, me, and Shelby are going shopping! I'm tired as hell, bye going to sleep... now!

I'm listening to cheatercheaterbestfriendeater by never shout never! Its a cool song! This music video is funny! Rebecca's still hasn't spoken with me, i don't think she will. Also today my dad,mom, and me are going later to have dinner. If you don't know my father doesn't live with us anymore, my mom and him are separated. They might move back in with each other down in Florida after my dad gets sober. I'm also debating whether i should put my blog link on secretzen.com its a website where people can secretly post secrets. I think i would get more followers that way!

Feb. 10 2011- begin good end bad

Today was good. I walked in and and went to drama, me and Garit made plans to spend the night this weekend. But then it all crumbled when Logan had the bright idea to draw a smily face on my miss me jeans which cost 90$ not includeing tax. I was so pissed! but my day went on and after school i went to student council (which im not a member of ) and hung out with my friends. But Rebecca was being a bitch and makin fun of me so i cancled our plans. Then when i get home, on facebook and text messages shes cusing me out about how im such a bitch and was never a friend blah blah blah! So i told her our friendship is over. i thought she was a friend but obviously not enough although i think we'll get over it sooner or later. we said some really nasty thing to each other. i cried because i thought i'd lost one of the bestest friends i've ever had, i apologized but i dont think shes forgivin me. i cried over this girl! and if you knew me you'd know i do not cry that often!

Feb. 9 2011- Never Shout Never

Hey im (right now) listening to What is Love? by Never Shout Never. Its an fucking awsome song! Yesterday, i told Garit that i was moving and she cried a little. i felt bad and made "imaginary' plans that i would live with her at her house, if only our plan could be reality. But im exsited about movinng! Really, i cant wait to wake up every morning to a beautieful beach and go to sleep with the view of the sunset! Its going to be great! Although here in Gerorgia today at school, Lewis was looking through some random makeup bag some girl had left in the cafiteria. We started to walk down the hall to leave back to class, when me and Angelita perswaded Lewis to go back and steal some concealer! He then came back with the wrong stuff so he went back and got the right thing. Its Victoria Secret Shimmer Body Powder. Its sparkely! I really like it but when i told my mother she wasn't pleased. well i'll talk to you later! HASTA LUEGO! (spanish for see you later!)

P.S- on March 24, im getting surgery in Atlanta for my scoliosis. Im getting two metal rods screwed into my back! sound greusome huh?! but (really no joke!) im not scared, i think ill be scared right before thy knock me out with their mumbo jumbo junk. but right now, no im not scared.

Feb. 5 2011- bitches

today my friend Savannah is coming over. although shes my friend im not pleased with her at the moment. i stopped talking about him, i really did he only came up when she mentioned him! then she cries to her friends who call me and yell at me for not dropping the subject. they said they would fight me and that i was trash and needed to back off. and how Savannah really loves him, well heres a news flash for yah! i love him too! so im not gunna 'back off' thoose bitches can suck it! but i wont ever speak of Zack around Savannah again! really now that i think about it, if we arnt even dateing and he's causing this much trouble in my life! i dont wanna think about what its like to date him! pluse he hasnt texed me for days and its like hes a stranger. i think our realtionship has come to an end. and thank god it did!
p.s i boaught a shane dawson T-shirt and owl city bracelet and red glasses. they fucking rock!

Feb. 3 2011- scribbles

Im drawing! Its a cute picture, i have one of my family my two brother's families and my other brother who has no family...yet. At school today i was standing outside waiting for my ride which was to come a 5:15 and then my bestfriend and the wrost/funniest kid in the school came up to me. Cameron (wrost/funniest kid) and me talked until Rebecca(best friend) came up to us. We dicided to walk around the school. He came to the back where the portables are. Ms.Sands the evil bitch from hell wasnt in her portable so we dared Cameron to go inside and write foul language on the bord. We then dicided to blame it on an inoccent boy named Logan who's a fag. (sigh) what a day! He wrote bitch and asswhole on the bord, wonder whats going to happen tommorow?

Febuary 2 2011-any other day

hi today was nice. i got home though and found that the computer didnt want to work so i couldnt watch skins. but i did however find out some gossip news last night. i texted my cousin, who lives in california, and found out she has been smokeing since she was 14, has had sex many times, and smokes weed! isnt my family swell! most of them are drugs users and alcholics!!! yipie! anyway im feeding my fish as we speak, his bowl needs to be cleaned. my mother made nasty dinner like always. i read some more of a book called bad girls dont die its pretty good but creepy!!! and i was alone in the house!!! scary! a girl i once knew and cared for ALOT chated with me on facebook then she gave me her number to text her! we were very close in a way most wouldnt understand. well good bye and OPPS! one more thing! today in world history we created pass ports and mine is all...ALL PURPLE!!! its my favorite color!

Feb. 1 2011- Skins

skins, the best show on the face of the planet! although it has nudity,sex,drugs,cursing, and more! its just amazing!!! my friend showed it to me, but dont tell her! she'll call it copying, but last i check anyone can watch the show! in the show Tony, is pretty cute, but Cris is right up there but not good enough. Sid is cute but not like Tony cut like nerdy childish cute, like the way you see a little kid, that cute. Jal, is kind of a bitch, but so is Michel!!! Sid loves her and treats her right but shes in love with Tony because hes hot. although he cheats on her and doesnt love her like Sid does. Cassie is the wierdest! she a small anorexic mental case! and she likes Sid! she has a eating disorder and is like a high hippie all the time "wow, thats amazing i love boats they go places" that sort of shit. then you have this other guy with doesnt have a big part i forget his name, hes gay. then a muslium guy and i forgot his name too. it fucking funny though! and there alot of sex in it. and Cris uses drugs ALOT! but he mother recently left him and he fixing him self....i think. if you think this show is like the Tudors or Dexter where the only show womens boobs. NO!!! they showed Cris's balls and a couple womens Vagina! bye watch skins if your old enough!!!