MARCH 28 2011- Loppieness

My Medication Makes Me Mighty Mental.

(P.S the medication that I am speaking of is doctor prescribed as a pain medication for my back after my extensive surgery march 24 10011)

March 27 2011-3 days after my surgery

im in so much pain. I need help getting out of bed and getting into bed. I have to take 4 different kinds of pills every 4 hours. Sitting is the most hurtful position to be in. Walking isnt so bad but i can sometimes get a little naseus after too long. I need help going to the bathroom. Bet i cn flush the toliet by myself and im getting better at Moving around in bed like turning my hips and chest. I hurt but this will all pass. Im also getting 2 kittens today or tommorow and after i move in a week im getting a rottwilier puppy.

UGH! SHIT! Hes in a relationship again! with some girl whos not even pretty! named Callie Hangerman! why God oh

why?! I think im giving up on the search for my lover Miller. Im giving up because we are just to far away, mabye we arn't made for each other. But i have new searches to search at church. At church now there are 3 cute guys who well at least two think im hot! and yes God im going to church every Sunday and Wednesday!!! life is content right now.

by the way this picture is just awsome but it really has no purpouse but to be there!

March 15 2011- I'm eating pretzels

I haven't talked with my dad in at least 2 1/2 weeks. I'm not sad it was my decision to completely ignore him. I think our (me and my mothers) presence isn't helping his atempt at being sober. So our hypothosis is that ignoreing him and not helping him in anyway will help him become more independent and that will give him things to do instead of sitting around watching T.V and getting drunk. But we actually have no clue, all our other hypothsis's have failed...epicly!
Also my surgery in next week on Thursday the 24 of March 2011!!!

hint: Next year the world will end. Be prepared...haha joking!

Sexting

Me and Lewis got to texting he asked for a picture of my vagina, i sent onebut with my underwear on. He sent me a picure of his cock then i sent him a picture of my boobs. This is my first encounter with sexting and with a guy who has a girlfriend of all things!!!

Realationship problems at 13

Theo Williams is a good, funny, awesome, black, friend of mine. He's practically my best guy friend! He obviously (by what happened last night) wants to be more then friends! He asked me out and for at least 3 hours talked only about perverted subjects. Theres multiple problems to this situation. Hes black which isn't a bad thing but me (and many others i know!) think white people should be with white people and viceversa with blacks! Another is he has been a real fucker in the past, he's just being a normal, annoying, kinda rude ass 13 year old boy but sometimes what he says hurts! Also he informed me that Lewis (his best friend and my other guy friend) likes me too. Lewis has been worse then Theo on the name calling but Theo sits there and laughs at what he says. Then theres Logan a fat lard who likes me and i dislike his piggy guts! This is all new to me because no guy has ever liked me before because I'm tall and well you have to know me well to appreciate me!

He hugged her today. Miller May hugged her! Rebecca Lugo's life is forfilled and i stood there and watched as her dream (at the moment) came true while mine got crushed into little pieces like shattered glass. My life is horrible now, this whole day was a living nightmare!

I'm spending the night with Caroline this weekend- week! We are on our way ALL they way to Mongumery in Georgia! i'm coming home on Saturday next week. I'm exsited we are going to her fathers house where his busissness is boat tours and parties. it's the kind of boat you can reserve a couple hours to have a party, bithday, even wedding (but i'd prefer a nicer boat)! Caroline is my bestie but people have questioned her sexuallity before, but i never have i thing shes straight as a stick! but sticks then again can have their bumps but i think its that way for every one! once in your life you get a little quirious and want to exsplore the same sex, mabye carolines "exploring" just happened sooner then other girls in junior high! But it hasnt happened for me yet, and i think it'll be a long while before it will ever happen! yikes i still thinks its fucking fucked up!